25 things.

Rules: Start with "If you really knew me, you'd know..." Same rules as the 25 random things. Tag 25 people, once you've been tagged, you have to do this as well. Write 25 truths about yourself you want your friends to know about you.

If you really knew me, you'd know...

1. I believe in God.
2. I HATE it when people pronounce Ramon Noodles wrong.
3. I'm scared that an elephant is going to sit on me, and I'll never come out.
4. I had alot of friends in high school, but I always felt alone.
5. I get jealous very easily.
6. I used to think I knew what love was, until I dated & married Matt.
7. If I hate you, I'll be nothing but nice to you. That's just how I am.
8. I have PTSD, and I never talk about it. So don't ask.
9. I don't drink or smoke anymore.
10. Other than my husband, my nephew is the most important person on my life.
11.I used to have a pet hedgehog named Sonic.
12. I also used to have 13 pet baby possums.
13. I basically grew up at a BMX track. Yes, I raced.
14. I have alot of sensory issues and I took speak therapy when I was young.
15. I'm obsessed with McDonalds Monopoly.
16. Hippos are the most adorable animal to me.
17. I still get upset that all of my wedding pictures besides the ones family and friends took, are gone.
18. I like Tennessee alot better than California.
19. I've never seen Forrest Gump all the way through.
20. I start college in the spring to be a dental assistant, while working towards getting my teaching degree.
21. I always thought that Casey and Cappy should be together. (greek<3)
22. I hate being stuck in the house all day.
23. I never know when I'm full, so I eat until I feel sick.
24. I love pancakes and pizza more than any other food.
25. I'd rather read a good book than watch tv.

Ugh

I hate fucking things up, knowing I'm fucking them up, but yet I don't stop doing what I'm doing to fuck them up. Make sense? It doesn't to me.

What is this?

Praying? Asking people to pray for me? Actually asking God for things? I haven't been like this in years. I guess being around someone I love, who actually believes, has given me my faith back. I actually have something to believe in. This is weird, and wonderful all at the same time.

Day 10.

One confession.
1. I never tell people the real reason why I'm on depression medicine.

Day 9.

Two smileys that describe your life right now.
1. =D

2. ^_^

Day 8.

Three turnons.

1. Kissing on my neck.

2. Pressing on my hips.

3. Dirty talk, lol.

Day 7.

Four turnoffs.

1. Feet.

2. Happy trails.

3. Being conceited.

4. Your mom.

Day 6.

Five people who mean alot [in no order whatsoever].

1. Matthew Jordan Benson

2. Henry Allen Cain

3. Sara Elizabeth Cain

4. Hayley Michelle Benson

5. Theresa Anne Bratton

Day 5.

Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Drugs.

2. Lost my faith.

3. Thought my life wasn't worth living.

4. Treated my family so horribly.

5. Cut my hair so short in the 8th grade.

6. Took all the pain you caused me instead of standing up for myself.

Day 4.

Seven things that cross your mind alot.

1. "Ugh, why am I so fat."

2. "We'd need alot of lawn gnomes."

3. "God, he's so handsome."

4. "WHAT?!?!?!?!"

5. These thoughts cannot be repeated outloud.

6. "Why is it sooo early?"

7. "Everything hurts."

Day 3.

Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Be my husband.

2. Be my husband.

3. Be my husband.

4. Be my husband.

5. Be my husband.

6. Be my husband.

7. Be my husband.

8. Be my husband.

Day 2.

Nine things about yourself.

1. I'm married.

2. I live in California, but I'll always be a Tennessee girl.

3. I have severe depression and PTSD that I do not talk to anyone about.

4. I'm hyper alot of the time.

5. I've never been as happy as I am now.

6. My favorite animal is a hippo.

7. I've dyed my hair sooo many times.

8. Once my good opinion is lost, it's lost forever.

9. I have to have my feet uncovered when I sleep or it feels like I can't breathe.

Day 1.

Ten things you would like to say to someone right now.

1. I love you with all my heart. You mean more than the world to me. You'll always be the love of my life, and my husband <3

2. I miss you and I'm so sorry I can't be there with you on Halloween. You're gonna make a great rockstar. I love you lovebug.

3. HAHAHAHAHHAH. Seriously, you're so ignorant.

4. I wish you would stop being so dramatic. Things change, and I know you've been hurt in the past but there's no reason to be overdramatic about it.

5. JUST SO YOU KNOW, nobody likes you. I don't see why you think they do.

6. I just met you, but you're becoming one of my best friends. Thanks for being a great neighbor :]

7. Please don't leave us.

8. I wish I talked to you more, because I really do miss you more than you know.

9. I miss sneaking into the attic to smoke with you. You were like my little sister, and I miss you so much.

10. I need you more than ever now.

I might as well.

DAY 1- Ten things you would like to say to someone right now.
DAY 2- Nine things about yourself.
DAY 3- Eight ways to win your heart.
DAY 4- Seven things that cross your mind alot.
DAY 5- Six things you wish you’d never done.
DAY 6- Five people who mean alot [in no order whatsoever].
DAY 7- Four turnoffs.
DAY 8- Three turnons.
DAY 9- Two smileys that describe your life right now.
DAY 10- One confession.

It's official.

I love the way he looks at me when I wake up in the morning. I love the way he bumps into my hand right before he holds it. I love the way he laughs at me when I ask to watch him shave. I love the way he kisses my cheek, right on the cheekbone. I love his skin tag. I love the fact that he doesn't care about money. I love the way he looks when he sleeps.

It's official. I'm in love with my husband.

500 Days of Summer

was probaly the greatest movie of my life. I've watched it 3 times in the past week. Hah!

Anyway, we're doing really good on money for the first time in forever. And we went to dinner with our neighbors last night. I've got a friend now and I'm starting school next semester. It's like my life is finally falling in place.

I couldn't be happier than I am right now.